I am not liking the idea of having to search for another job. UGH! I find myself tossing and turning waking up every hour on the hour...and I have to remember....give this to my Father. Some days I wake up thankful that I have a job for now, then I remember, oh yeah, not for long. Lately, I find myself searching for other positions within the company. Some in the same state and others in different states. I can't imagine packing up and moving my family of four for a job..but people do it every day.
Then I think, perhaps I will look outside my company but then I am back to right where I started..because I enjoy where I work. I enjoy the people. I enjoy the location and I enjoy the known. I don't want to start over at 39.....I fee like I'm settled.
So....this is what I started thinking.....as my walk gets deeper and closer to the Lord, I feel like I am being tested..you know..with my faith. My goal for 2009 was to get closer to my Father, read more of my BIBLE, and search and dig for answers to all the questions I've asked and wonder'd about all these years. Yes, I do feel closer to HIM than ever before. And, I also feel that my learning has gone to another level, if that makes any sense. (HE has been so gentle with me baby stepping) You know the saying "leap of faith".
My God already knows my wants and desires and best of all, HE knows my needs. So, during this time of preparing for another direction in my life, I will stay behind my guide as He is my compass & navigator and will get me to my next destination.
