I am not liking the idea of having to search for another job. UGH! I find myself tossing and turning waking up every hour on the hour...and I have to remember....give this to my Father. Some days I wake up thankful that I have a job for now, then I remember, oh yeah, not for long. Lately, I find myself searching for other positions within the company. Some in the same state and others in different states. I can't imagine packing up and moving my family of four for a job..but people do it every day.
Then I think, perhaps I will look outside my company but then I am back to right where I started..because I enjoy where I work. I enjoy the people. I enjoy the location and I enjoy the known. I don't want to start over at 39.....I fee like I'm settled.
So....this is what I started thinking.....as my walk gets deeper and closer to the Lord, I feel like I am being tested..you know..with my faith. My goal for 2009 was to get closer to my Father, read more of my BIBLE, and search and dig for answers to all the questions I've asked and wonder'd about all these years. Yes, I do feel closer to HIM than ever before. And, I also feel that my learning has gone to another level, if that makes any sense. (HE has been so gentle with me baby stepping) You know the saying "leap of faith".
My God already knows my wants and desires and best of all, HE knows my needs. So, during this time of preparing for another direction in my life, I will stay behind my guide as He is my compass & navigator and will get me to my next destination.
2 comments:
Oh sister. I so related to your post. Not because I am looking for a job or in danger of losing one but because I have felt too that so much of what I go through is drawing me closer to God. And it seems that though I long for periods of ease and comfort there is always something that is around the corner that puts me back on my knees. I have come to understand that there always will be and that underneath are the Everlasting Arms. He is just trying to get me to that point where I rest in them more peacefully. I am a slow learner!
I know He is with you and I pray you find that job just right when you need it. Sometimes we want what we want and it is good, but God wants to give us the best and we must wait for His best at times. Love ya!
I'm sorry that you are struggling with the issues of possibly finding another job/position. The unknown grips many of us...but if we (preaching to myself too) would truly truly trust him with the plan He has in place for us which is always better...we wouldn't worry so much of our life away, ya know? I am constantly worrying about something and constantly giving it to the Lord and then taking it back...I get sick of me getting in the way.
I will be praying for you! What kind of work do you do?
We REALLY need to do lunch soon! School is out....we work close by each other...we have no excuse!
Let's make it happen soon!
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